This is an entry I typed but forgot to release on Thursday 2/18. I have more to add to this, but I cannot say it yet. Anyhoo...here it is:
It feels good to finally make the decision. I cannot sit around and wait anymore for life to change. I believe it is in God's hands, but I need to find some way to help myself get there.
Aside from the initial thrill of actually doing something about it. I come to realize that this is a big gamble, especially for me. I would like to think that I am a pretty spontaneous and risk taking person, but this is still a big deal. I am going out there to look for a job anywhere that is not guaranteed while couch hopping at various locations while potentially spending all of my savings! AHH! It is sooo exciting, but also very, very nerve racking.
I know that this is the way the industry works. Everyone moves out there without a job and very little $$ in their pocket. It is the typical "struggle" story that defines everyone in that town. I am curious as to what my story will be.
I know I will struggle, and I know I have no clue where life will take me, but that is part of the adventure. My parents do not fully understand it, but they are supporting it. That is all I ask. My dad told me this really is the "chasing my dream" period of my life. At least I am doing that, as many don't have the chance to try. I am not sure if I will emerge victorious, but I will try my hardest.
So here is the plan for now. I leave 10am March 16th and fly to Santa Ana, CA. I will stay with my Aunt and Uncle who live 1hr+ from LA. I may have to rent a car for two weeks, but while I am at their house, we are shipping the family's Camry out there for me to use for now. Once the camry comes in the end of march, I will apt hop at my friends' places.
I sent out emails to all of my contacts today as soon as I bought the ticket alerting them of my move. I cannot believe it is happening! I have no intention of living the rest of my life there, but I know it is where I need to start. I just hope my contacts are with me on this. I received some emails back already stating they will help me, and to come visit. good start so far!
I am almost jumping out of my chair knowing that I at least have a direction and time. I just have to fit all the other pieces together.
I am sad to be leaving my family, and especially my grandmother, but I need to do this. I need to try. I know they will always be with me and they are only a phone call away.
So here is to moving perhaps the furthest place away from home in the country...some 2800 miles. I am officially LA bound with endless possibilities. I just hope it comes together sooner rather than later. I have a month to prepare all ends, so I will be ready.
Until then... I am keeping the dream alive!
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