The Worst Week Ever

(written from Tuesday 8/24- Sunday 8/29)

Hi Bloggers,

I am writing this entry today with a very somber mentality and mood. There is not much left for me to feel this week as this was the worst week I have experienced while in Los Angeles. I honestly just need to get through it and never look back.

By now I am sure you are all used to reading my rather up and down, almost bi-polar, turbulent journey of trying to make it out here. I promise I am not that bi-polar in person, I just tend to wear my heart on my sleeve and react to how I feel.

I will try and make this short, since I do not want to dwell on the negatives of this week much longer, but I know you need an update. Here it goes…

First thing you should know is I have a bad back. I have had a herniated disk in my lower back since I was fifteen, and over the last eight years, I have dealt with it fine. It is always a nuisance, but I just deal with it as part of my daily life. Well this summer, I went running and my disk slipped out. I could barely walk for about two weeks, and it went back into place and I didn’t think anything of it. However, today, I am in so much pain because I cannot sleep through the night, walk, sit, or drive without pain. It is my left leg that hurts, and I know I have a pinched nerve from my disk since my leg, not my back, hurts ironically enough. Just that in itself has been causing a lot of stress on my body, and has made the last three weeks really suck. I am at the point now where I just want to scream so hard because I feel so much discomfort, and it has been hard to get through this week.

Second issue… I went to a doctor this week for my back to get a diagnosis on my pain. I literally walked in and out within 20 minutes, and the doctor just gave me a prescription for the pain and told me I needed tests. That was it. I tried scheduling the tests a few days after the appointment, but it turns out my insurance only covers me in the state of NJ. I have no coverage for anything out in California. That now puts a HUGE damper on my speedy recovery because I now have to solve the insurance issue before I see a doctor. Seriously?? No one covers me in CA? How much do we pay a month?? UGH!!

The third event that happened this week was my roommate got really sick this week. It seemed like food poisoning, but the next thing I know I get a phone call from her in the hospital. She had emergency gall bladder removal surgery! I rushed to her side at work to make sure she is okay, because it is really hard to live somewhere on your own without family nearby. She was okay, but luckily her mom flew into town and helped with her recovery. I knew I could not help her too much with my bad back, so I was thankful her mom came. So far, her recovery has been really difficult as she has been in and out of the hospital about three times since the surgery. I know it will take time for her to get better, but it seems this week does not want to help us out.

Issue #4. I was given four John Williams tickets to see him at the Hollywood Bowl, and I figured after a tough week, this would be a great activity. Well, we parked and walked inside but then our tickets were rejected my the usher. They were not valid. It turns out the tickets were for the previous night, and I had received them for today. So we were unable to go inside. Frustrated, I walked to my car and it was stacked parking! There was only one spot for a car to get out, and luckily, I had it. If I had to stay, I would have lost it!

The last and final event, and the most important, is... after working for Physical Producion for 3.5 months, interviewing for the position, and feeling good about my chances, I did not get the job. The executives hired someone else. I am crushed. I really felt like this could have been my break, but guess not. The reasons for why I was let go I do not agree with, and I think there were other issues involved, but I won’t get into that. So I will finish next week for the new girl to begin after Labor Day weekend.

I have no idea where I will go from here, but I have a about a week and a half to keep working. I don’t really feel like going back, but I know it is the right thing to do. I will handle it with grace and maturity to prove that I wanted to be there.

In all, that is the fun times of my horrible week. I will try to stay positive and see that I do have a place for this industry, but right now, I am really shaken. I do not feel confident as I once was. I just need to get through this week.

Until then…. Hope you guys are all doing better than I am!